A Tourist at Home

When I was growing up in post-war Brussels the concept of children holidaying abroad was unheard of, and what’s more excursions outside the city was few and far between. Summer had women of the family gathered with the children in an apartment at the seaside for a couple of weeks and I enjoyed a string of wonderful month-long summer camp courtesy of the YWCA. By the time I reached 21 most of Belgium was still foreign to me.

Now that our lives have taken a new turn, Michel is my travel guide in my own country. This fall we took a canal trip on a cool sunny day on this boat

Until the canal met the Schelde on its way to Antwerp and the North Sea.

Along the canal new pricey apartments with a view mingle with much older houses

but old village churches and buildings are still very much present.

From the Provence

We stayed at my cousin's lovely house in the charming village of Signes





Where adults enjoy the café life while watching children play



Over the years little has changed in the heart of this pretty village

September in France

Some images of September in France
Peaceful cows around Nevers



A comical cutie along the Canal du Midi



A café near my village in the Languedoc



We stopped in the Camargue




For a delicious meal




In this restaurant



In Aigues Mortes we admired the ramparts and the slow peaceful river





And walked around Sainte-Marie-de-la-Mer where I loved this "cadran solaire"



Next stop, la Provence

August Is For . . .

August is for delicious raspberry tart

and a gift of blueberries from my neighbor's garden


which made for the best muffins,


August is for visits to the Japanese garden

on a hot hot day when only the fish was cool

and for sipping cool drinks by the river


August is for sleepy visiting granddaughters

for bicycle rides

and pretty little things lying around

and, of course, August is when the kitchen sink is full of sticky pans

and fresh jam lines up on the window sill

August is also for a return trip to Belgium but that's another posting.

Part Four: And so, Dear Reader, . . .

Part One: Les Etangs d'Ixelles
Part Two: The Course of True Love

Part Three: Poste Restante

2008. I turned seventy in October. Raising children and a professional life are memories now. I have lived alone longer than I ever did as a wife, and I am contented here in the Northwest where the climate reminds me of my native Belgium. It is a solitary life but a pleasant enough one filled with visits with children and grandchildren, new and old friends, art classes, books, my rose garden, sunny weeks in the French house I share with a friend.
Witnessing my granddaughters in the throes of young love inevitably evokes my own first love but I don't allow my heart to linger in that painful territory. Though I regret not sharing the simple pleasures of life with a companion, I have long ago come to terms with that sadness. It's a locked box relegated on a shelf in my memory.

December 6. My mother's birthday and the anniversary of bringing my new two-year old daughter home. I am not dreaming of either milestone when the phone wakes me up at 2:37 am. Instantly, the fear of unspeakable harm to my children fills me with panic.

-Françoise? (a faint Belgian voice ) Françoise? (Michel? Yes, Michel)
- Oui? (fear recedes but my mind goes blank)
- Do you know who this is?
- Yes. Yes. Of course I know. (does he imagine I could ever forget his voice!?)

I can't go back to sleep after that night's long emotional conversation. I am stunned. Literally. I sit on the edge of my bed and cannot put two thoughts together. I cannot figure out what I feel, too many contradictory emotions collide in my head and heart. Like Pandora's my box has burst open and all the ills and pains of that impossible love are washing over me. The urge to flee them is as strong as the temptation to believe Michel who is finally free and who for decades has held on tight in his heart to that one last nugget: hope.

Four months and many letters and phone calls later, still filled with misgivings, I wait for him in a hotel room in Brussels. My escape plan is ready just in case this meeting proves disastrous. Then, we are in each other arms and all is as it should be. The next 40 days are the happiest of our lives, "as though" to quote someone else, "after a parenthesis of 50 years, life is finally back on its normal course."




EPILOGUE

Living on separate continents creates many geographic, practical and legal complications. And so, Dear Reader, I will not marry him. We'll live sometimes here and sometimes there. Together. At long, long last together.

The end . . . and the beginning.

Lies, All Lies

I know what it said about *rainy* Portland, well, just compare it to Southern California or the south of France for that matter . . .

Glass Fusion 101

You need a teacher.


glass in many colors,


and a board on which to assemble your pieces.


When you're done, they are set on a kiln tray.


The next day you can see what you and your classmates achieved.





I made pendants and earrings,



and a Mondriaen-ish paper weight, and had great fun doing it!